2015 is the year for Focus. The year where I find myself again. Where I reintroduce things to my life which make me happy. Small things. Which reflect who I am. Opening new doors and closing others. I will be more in 2015. I will make it happen.
Since Lil G arrived I have been guilty of closing off other parts of my life. Not all but far too much. There will always be precious time spent with my boys. Time together as a family. Just us. This will never be replaced. Family will always comes first. My blog a very close second. I may be obsessed! Although I can switch off and have proved this, this week.
The difference between now and then is simply ‘Our Little Family’. Life has changed. Now, that isn’t a bad thing but, I do need to learn to balance family life with being me. I am not just a mummy. I love being a mummy, but that isn’t all that I am.
In order to find myself again there are a few things I want to change. They are not resolutions. They are promises. I made them to myself before New Year. I actually started some of No2 8 weeks before Christmas so as to have the mental strength to continue. It is working.
Here they are…
- I promise to do more of what makes me happy – that may be to bake a cake, read a magazine with a hot cup of tea, listen to more music – not Mr H’s music, my music. To dance. To laugh. Keep a day journal, a memory book. To spend more time with friends. To visit the beach more. To eat out more as a family. To relax and not always rush to fill the day with an activity. To not feel so guilty for being a full-time working parent.
- I promise to be a better me – to exercise and to stick at it. I made a start on the 5th January. This is going well. I will be a cavewoman. I am really enjoying it actually. I cannot wait to see the transformation. To live a healthier lifestyle, to eat less of the bad stuff and more of the good stuff. To look forward to the clothes I will be wearing in the summer because my body will be on the way to how I want it to be. My new friends: fruit, nuts, seeds, carrot sticks, meat, fish, chicken, vegetables. To not get so frustrated by the little things. To stay calm. Be happy.
- I promise to be a better wife – Mr H takes care of the house. I work full-time, I have my blog and a paid writing role which I do in the evenings, therefore he cooks, he cleans. We split the support we give to Lil G. I do the thinking and planning around being a family. Mr H looks after money. I really do want to be a better wife. I think that means I have to clean more. Argh. Now to most of you reading this you will be thinking… What? Well, Mr H has OCD you see so the cleaning becomes an issue. I make the bed, he remakes the bed and so on. Nevertheless I will try.
And there you have it. My Focus for 2015. It is all about me. Some may say that is selfish. I think it’s about time.
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